Irrational fear of falling

I've got a slipped disc in my lower back and it has been screwing up my life for the last two years or so. This is something you will be reading about on this blog, and I mean consistently, in overly exaggerated portions. This stupid disc is the reason I get an anxiety attack every time I stumble or almost fall or trip over my own feet, I even get slightly panicky if I see others stumbling! So, when I go and fall flat on my butt, pushing my spine out in exactly the worst way possible, I feel like I must lie down there and then, in the café (oh yeah, that's me in all my glory), and not move, ever, possibly drowning in my own tears! But, there's a baby to haul back home in the blistering hale, a diaper to be changed, food to be shoveled, teeth to be brushed and before you know it the day is done and the tears, they never got cried!

Let's try this again, shall we!

Ok, so I've tried this before and it's still out there somewhere. Why am I not continuing that one you might ask? Cause' I forgot the bleedin' password that's why! Have already tried every combination of all the words in the English language and I still can't access it, so here we go again! It's actually good really, so much has happened in the last two years (now you know how long it takes to go through the English dictionary) that it would be kinda' hard to try and continue from last time, so, a fresh start it is. I just noticed how much I use the word so, I've even deleted a couple, can you believe that? So, (haha) anyway, I'm gonna try this again, am definitely not promising anything, what with my lazy ass history, but I've been feeling increasingly frustrated with all kinds of shit, nothing major, just, you know, needing somewhere to sound off. Somewhere to nag, really, about everything and nothing. Don't sweat the petty stuff, just write about it!